I find my attention wavering from the usually consuming joy of reading.  I am in the middle of four books right now (4!) and I cannot settle on one at the moment.  I think I'm restless.  Even before my mom's surgery, I was trapped in this house, jobless and feeling purposeless.  It has been nearly a month since my temp job ended.  I drove my mom to ( Read more... )

I'd like a job so that I can have money.  With that money, I'd like to buy books.  Specifically, books about other places.  I'd like to read these books about places I have never been and may never visit.  Is this cruel ( Read more... )

So I'm just working on my Creative Writing assignment, feeling sorry for myself.

I haven't written creatively in so long!  Not that I haven't tried, but it hasn't been at the front of my mind in a long while.  Maybe things will change.  Or maybe I'll discover that I'm only a literary genius in my mind and that all my dreams and delusions are for ( Read more... )

Tonight I'm having what-are-you-doing-with-your-life thoughts.  What indeed.  I'm not depressed.  Surprise!  Just contemplative. 
I can address the question in a couple of ways.  Literally, I'm online, writing this instead of oh, I don't know...sleeping?  Not that this is my bedtime.  I've got about 2 more hours.  I could be doing work but where's ( Read more... )

A window breaks from the impact.

It's past midnight, my iPod's imperfect, the elevator's making noises again, and it's too cold for October.

I'm angry.  It's a quiet anger, which can easily be mistaken for depression (though that bitch is most likely along for the ride too).  I don't know why.  Not really.

There's nothing wrong with my life.  ( Read more... )

Gawd, I'm irritated.

Lot's of bad feelings and thoughts lately.  Am stepping back a bit.  Not soul searching (cause I know where that is).  Just stepping back.

Things just aren't going the way I (or anyone else) would like.

Self doubt is a bitch and she kicks you while you're down.  Having your personality attacked by your nearest and dearest is ( Read more... )